Some say it's a blessing...

This week has been really intense. It's like now my mind has gone to jello and I cannot really think at all. My mp3 went missing; but I found it after freaking out for an entire evening/night. I'm leaving to go down South tomorrow, and going on a tour of my chosen university on Saturday, after we drop my brother off at his university.

I was working on a music video for my English Lit class earlier. It's of one of Shakespeare's plays, Titus Andronicus. It's actually pretty gory, the play, I'm not sure that I like it. Anyways, I just have to write up a paragraph to go with it.

In other news, Canadian TV channels are really stupid. Nikita's on the CW tonight, but no other channel is showing it. And in Canada, we don't get the CW.

mushy-brain,
Jessa

Saturday. Saturday. Saturday.

Life has gotten really difficult on my end. My brother has been home for the past four months; he's on a co-op term for university. He is driving me insane. More than normal. He blocks me from the Internet just because he's not happy with the speed, yells at me, etc. He also calls me names. And fat.

I have enough to deal with without him calling me these things. I'm not comfortable with my body...I'm not fat, but I'm not happy with my stomach. Really self-conscious. That is not helped by him calling me fat every chance he gets. Also, whenever I argue with him (not started by me), he decides to call me thigns like bitch. I feel like crying about 90% of the time that he's around. Thankfully he goes back to university this weekend.

Counting-down-to-Saturday,
Jessa

I'm not a spice girl, and I was never ever obscure.

I just realized something--they take my top six grade 12 marks, which means that I still have my above 85% average. That's awesome for me since I need all of the money I can get my hands on. Trying to come out of university with as little debt as possible.

I need to get a move on on reading Wuthering Heights--I have to be finished by May 2nd. Also, I have two assignments for English Lit to do.. :/ Hopefully I can finish everything in good time!!!

I-was-a-legend,
Jessa

I'll Call You Back When I Take This Bitch Down

Yesterday...I got my midterms. Not what I expected: not an 85% average which is what I needed to keep my scholarship. It was about 84.8%...that's frustrating. I expect that if I bump them up for finals I can still have it. I forget exactly how they work, but I could still have it based on my final marks from first semester. We'll see I suppose.

Nikita was on last night, and it was actually pretty good. There are a few things that I am not sure about with the show, but they should be cleared up soon.

All-In-Due-Time,
Jessa

Dear Mr Potter....

Dear Mr. Potter,

Before I go off on a ramble, I just want to say thank you. You changed my life. 

When I was about four years old, my brother and I were playing outside with a dog that lived down the street from us. My brother, the genius that he was, decided to throw the large stick that he was holding into the bush. Of course, the dog thought that it was time to play fetch, so he ran to get the stick. He picked it up in his mouth and turned around to bring it back and whacked me directly in the mouth. I was four years old, I couldn’t duck, and I didn’t know what to do. One of my teeth fell out, there was quite a bit of blood, and I developed a fat lip from this ordeal. Being a four year old, I obviously started crying and went back up the house. After being “patched up”, I was lying in bed when my brother came in and started reading the Philosopher’s Stone to me. I don’t remember how far we got into the book, but I just know that I was hooked from then on.

It took me awhile, but I managed to get my reading up to the level where I could read Harry Potter on my own by Grade 1. I haven’t stopped reading them since this. Almost literally. But the point here is, you gave me some meaning to my life. I’ve learnt so many lessons from these books about a boy wizard. I’ve learnt that, it’s okay to be different, and it’s ok to break down sometimes. I saw so much of myself in the books, but the thing is…I’m not sure if that’s who I was before, or if reading the novels shaped who I am today. I have a hunch that it’s the latter.

I’m not entirely sure what my life would’ve been like if that day when I got whacked n the face hadn’t happened. Well, aside from not ever having a fat lip, and being much sadder that is. Something tells me that there would have been many bad things happening had I never experienced the novels. SO I’m pretty confident in saying that…Harry Potter saved my life. 

Love,

Jessa

Run Fast. Run Far.

I was happier earlier today, honestly. I couldn't stop smiling; not even sure why I felt that way in the first place. But now, not so much. I'm stressed to the max, trying to get projects done and the school newspaper out. I'm the editor this year, and let me tell you it is the hardest thing ever. Yea, the staff members are all my friends really...but it's like pulling teeth. And the teacher who runs it misses printing all the time. I feel like..I don't even know. I'm trying my best, but sometimes that's not nearly enough and I'm not sure what else I can be doing.

On the bright side, this is all over in a couple months. My graduation date is the 30th of June, so I'm pretty excited for that. We have our exams and everything late this year because we started school later. Doesn't matter much to me though, since I only have one exam this semester. That's right, just one. My other two classes (Data Management and English Literature) are both culminating projects that are worth 30% of our grade. So bascially, those are my exams for each class.

In other news, I'm thinking about starting a novel. Writing one I mean. I've written in the past, mostly for NaNoWriMo, but I wanted to do a serious one this time. Problem is, I don't know if I will have neough time fore the next little while, since I have so much stuff to do for school...I'll figure it out. Maybe. I have to read Atonement for my final project, and Wuthering Heights. Both for English Class. Fun Fun.

Wishing-it-was-summer,
Jessa

PS: We're under a snowstorm warning here. It's APRIL for crying out loud!!!!

Toothbrush in the Ear

'Cause it's a good place to store things y'know. :P

If anyone catches that reference, I'll send them a virtual cookie! It's another short one today though, been quite busy. I had a bit of homework tonight, there was a practice lockdown at school, and I applied for residence. THey had shitty options for some questions though. Like their question about sleeping habits. Only two options were: I am up by 8am and I am up past midnight...neither of which is true for me on a regular day. Sure, sometimes I'm up late, and if I get the chance to sleep in I will..but COME ON! There should be a few more choices on here; one would think that it'd be a bit more detailed.

Have to go now! Got lots of work to do tomorrow (English Lit), so it'll probably be another short entry. I also have a math test later this week (blahh :S), so i'll be scarce for awhile!

Hoping-to-get-apartment-style-residence,
Jessa

Now's My Moment...

Well, not quite. Tomorrow is my moment. The residence application opens tomorrow at noon, so I am going to be applying for it the same day! Don't think I will apply before I get home though, as I have class in the afternoon; makes it inconvenient. Anyways, it's a big step for me. Things are starting to become more real; me going away to university I mean. It's exciting, but nerve-wracking at the exact same time. I'll need lots of luck to get me through!!

Not-going-to-let-my-moment-pass,
Jessa

Lie.

Well, I found out last night that all the good special features are on the blu-ray version of the new Harry Potter movie. Needless to say, I am really upset as I do not own a blu-ray player and I cannot afford one due to other expenses that I have for University. Might ask for one for Christmas, but then of course I have to re-buy the movies. So I'm undecided as of yet. I hope that when the Ultimate Editions come out they'll have special features, and I'd feel better about buying them. :) I've calmed down about all of this...had the night to sleep on it. I was furious last night though, and swore to no end. They should re-think this though. We're still buying the movie, so why no include everything? Even if you can't fit it all onto one disc, that's when you have special editions like the older movies: and you can charge more for them!!!

I did go shopping today..not for anything special, though I did buy a top. I was looking at new phones, since I will be needing one for University. We were looking at the LG Shine Touch, though I'm undecided at the moment.

Need-to-search-the-net-for-the-special-features,
Jessa

End of the Week

Sorry about no post yesterday, I was having a rough time so I just didn't get to it. There were issues with the cab service, and I was pretty ticked at the end of the day. The cab came 20 minutes early and waited ten minutes then LEFT before the training was over. So I was waiting until 5pm for my brother to come pick me up after work. But it's all over now, training is done and I am certified now, and I do not have to deal with the cab company at all.

On another note, I got the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 DVD today. The guy at the store had to go upstairs to get a copy for me I was so early in the morning to pick it up. :) Thinking about watching it tonight, but I'm not sure yet.

Happy-that-training-is-done,
Jessa

No Gas, No Glass, No Knives, No Wives, No Drugs, No Thugs

So I got through the first day of First Aid/CPR  training.  It was interesting, to say the least. I did learn quite a bit, but I need to keep looking things over so that I remember them. On funny instance today, other than the phrase above.

We were each given our own dummy so that we could practice CPR. (30 compressions, 2 breaths...just so you know), and he said "Feel free to give them names". In short, I "kissed" George...Weasley, that is. That's right, I named my dummy George. Don't know why, just did. XD

We're getting pizza tomorrow,  but I have to bring my own drink cause I don't know what they'll have. Usually it's pop, but I can't drink any at the moment so that's out of the question.

George-Weasley-was-awesome,
Jessa

Diving in

This'll be short, because I'm going to bed...but I was just reminding everyone, that is if there is even ONE person out there, that there are no double posts from here on out. Until Monday. Wish me luck on my training; i'm exhausted and I know I'm going to need it.

Sleepy-and-about-to-pass-out,
Jessa

We all wear masks

I have a bad feeling. I don't know why, but I woke up this morning completely exhausted; it felt like I hadn't slept a wink. I usually feel tired in the mornings, sure, but this just seems to be way too much. I'm hoping that I can get to bed early tonight (I'm serious this time), so that I at least have a shot at feeling okay tomorrow.

I really don't have the time to be worrying about this right now, I just have to focus on getting to the end of the week and THEN I can crash. Like I said before, I'm doing CPR/First Aid training this week, I have a meeting on Friday, I'm frantically looking for a job, and I have lots of work to do. On the bright side, I did fill out the bursary application form last night, though I had to use information from 2009 instead of 2010, because it wasn't going to be ready in time. That being said, I still have loads to do.

Extremely-exhausted-and-about-to-collapse,
Jessa

The only one you can count on...is you.

Last night, or rather, early this morning there was a really terrible thunderstorm. I don't know when it started, but at one point it woke me up so I had to turn off all my electronics so nothing exploded. Or got permanently damaged. Anyways, I was pretty shake up the entire night, considering I am terrified of thunderstorms. Well, for the most part. During the day I am normally okay with them, though I don't like them by any means. It's when they're at night that they scare me. There was also this huge thunder crack. I'm not going to exaggerate here but it was like a really loud gunshot or bomb explosion or something that you'd hear in the theatres that makes you jump about ten feet in the air. But apparently there is a small amount of flooding around other neighbourhoods where I live...so I hope that everyone there is safe..even though none of you will read this.

In other news, I am going to be CPR/First Aid certified by the end of this week. Sad part is, that means no double posts from Wednesday on. I'm going to be really occupied with training and with a meeting I have on Friday. I'm also frantically searching for a job and bugging my parents to complete their income taxes so that I can apply for a bursary...by Friday. Fun. I'll let you guys know (I know you're out there!!) How everything goes :)

Going-to-be-exhausted-by-the-end-of-the-week,
Jessa

You bought eight jars of marshmallow fluff...

I'm having a terrible day right now. When I got up this morning my computer wouldn't start up properly. As soon as I entered my password the screen would go black. After awhile of trying different things, I have it in safe-mode. Now I'm copying all of my files over to an external hard drive, so that I can rebuild my computer. Yay. Not happy about it AT ALL.

It's kind of like having so many jars of marshmallow fluff, but not the other ingredients that you need to fix it, so you have to eat them by themselves, which makes you sick. Or y'know, extremely grumpy.

Wants-to-throw-things,
Jessa

A Circle Has No Beginning

I've been extremely tired today and I've also felt like I've been running in circles. Through Google, that is. I have a data management project and my question for it is if the popularity of a book before it becomes a movie, affects how well the movie does. So what I was going for would be, for the most part, the movie revenue (box office only) and the copies sold. There are other variables, but I haven't gathered my information from there yet.


Movie revenue is extremely easy to come by, especially on www.boxofficemojo.com. The difficult thing here is finding how many copies of each book has been sold. Even findign those stats on Harry Potter is difficult!!! Through extensive Google searches I did find what I was looking for, though I'm waiting for some confirmation/clarification on the Harry Potter stats. In the meantime, I was going to look for my other variables, but I don't know. I think I have to edit which ones I want.

Feeling-really-dizzy,
Jessa

If I had just listened to you 5 years ago...

Well, Nikita last night was absolutely fantastic! After the heart-pounding cliffhanger that they left us with over a month ago, I think that every single fan just could not wait until it came back. We were rewarded for our patience as well. Now, I'm going to attempt to keep this spoiler-free, in case you want to go and watch this show (which you should), but if I slip-up, I apologize. I will try and have a bolded warning if there's not other way I can say it!!

Last episode, the one before the break, was definitely a psychological drama-esque episode. It also reminded me of Inception. It wasn't hard to follow, but you really had to be paying attention. If you miss one little thing you'll be left confused.

Five Years Ago...

This episode starts off with a flashback to Nikita's first overseas mission (with Michael). Pretty funny minute, but it takes a turn from there when it flashes back to the present time. For what is probably the second time (if you count the ONE tear she shed before), Nikita is found vulnerable and cries. She has 24 hours to complete this new mission or she will *essentially* be destroyed.  The only problem with this mission is that the only way that she will have a chance at completing it is to get in contact with people who hate her. And when I say hate her, I don't mean the silly "I hate you" drama that most people would expect. I mean the "I want to kill you" type thing.  Anyways, this episode centers around that mission, and how she handles it.
Obviously, the person who set the mission for her is in for it, because Nikita knows how to play hardball as well. There is little footage of Alex, but after a completely Alex-centric episode that is not too surprising. She's got herself into a tight spot, and it'll be interesting to find out how she gets out of it, or if she makes it out at all.

This episode contains what is probably one of the most shocking/unexpected twists to the story, but also not that surprising if you look very very closely at events that have happened up until now. The ending is completely expected, for the most part, due to the shocking twist. However, it remains to be seen if things will stay as they are. Chances are they won't, because that would have no drama or suspense in the rest of the season! We want the drama right? Right.

Needless to say, this episode was quite good, and I urge you to watch Nikita! It's on Thursdays at 9pm, on the CW and a few other channels!

Still-left-breathless,
Jessa

And the plot thickens. What was the plot, exactly?

There's really not much to say about today. My mind's been really fuzzy all day and I've just been going through the motions really. I did have a test, and I think it went well, but aside from that nothing really happened. I've been incredibly distracted because one of my absolute favourite shows, probably number 1 actually, is coming back tonight after a hiatus. I don't know why the network keeps putting it on hiatus, but they do. It's all in season one and I think it might be because they needed to make more episodes, but I'm not really positive about that. Anyways, have you ever heard of the show called Nikita? It's on the CW, the same network that has the Vampire Diaries, which I don't watch. It's a really good show, I'll post a synopsis that I have (not mine just fyi), so that you can see what it's about.

The '90s cult-classic returns to television with this remake about a young woman who is framed for murder, sentenced to death, and then forced to become an assassin for a covert branch of the government called Division after they fake her execution. When she realizes that she has been betrayed by everyone she thought she could trust, Nikita goes AWOL and goes on a mission to save future victims and expose this covert operation.

And this one!!!


When she was a deeply troubled teenager, Nikita was rescued from death row by a secret U.S. agency known only as Division, who faked her execution and told her she was being given a second chance to start a new life and serve her country. What they didn't tell her was that she was being trained as a spy and assassin. Throughout her grueling training at Division, Nikita never lost her humanity, even falling in love with a civilian. When her fiancé was murdered, Nikita realized she had been betrayed and her dreams shattered by the only people she thought she could trust, so she did what no one else before her had been able to do: she escaped. Now, after three years in hiding, Nikita is seeking retribution and making it clear to her former bosses that she will stop at nothing to expose and destroy their covert operation.

 If you get the chance, you should check out this show!! If you live in the US, you can watch it right on the CW website. If you don't drop me a line and I will help you out :)

Very-excited-for-Nikita-tonight,
Jessa

Devil May Care This Way

So I had a terrible day today. I already typed out the story on Facebook, but I feel like just copy/pasting it here since I'm still in a little bit of a bad mood.

Right so, I almost missed the bus this morning...I was running late and when I got out there I realized I forgot my USB key. Well, I ran back inside to get it and then ran back out. THEN I realized that i forgot an assignment. was halfway to my house when I saw the bus coming down the road, so I couldn't get my assignment. When I finally got to school; the library was incredibly loud and I could not concentrate very well on homework and studying for math. printed off a copy of my assignment, and then when I went to class, the teacher didn't even LOOK at the work for anyone. Then the math test rolled around, not sure how I did. I went out to wait for my bus, and NEVER saw it arrive at my school, though apparently it did. A total of 5 people missed the bus, out of...8 or9 who normally take it. really? how could the driver not see that so many were missing?!?

 

Then I called my mom to call my brother to come get me, since he has the car, and found out that he was supposed to be working late, therefore would not be there until after 6pm. Since I have a test tomorrow (sociology), I was not very happy because I study well at home and I couldn't concentrate at that point anyways. Thankfully he didn't work late, supervisor went out of town apparently, and mom called the school to tell me to call her back. Where she told me he was coming to get me. I finally got home, and then Indy misbehaved on his walk.

It's-days-like-these-when-I-wish-that-I-never-got-out-of-bed-in-the-morning,

Jessa

The Great 7x7x7x7 Challenge

Normally, I'd have used a random title for this post, but since it is quite important, in my estimations, I decided not to.

I was thinking about the BBC's 100 Books list, and while I am still considering trying to read everything on that list, I thought of something else related to it. As most of you know, the final Harry Potter film is coming out July 15th of this year. I plan on going opening night, and yes, I'm going to dress up this time (give me suggestions here please!!)

My point, however, has to do with the seven novels that make up the worldwide phenomenon. So I thought, why not read all the books from now until the movie is released? I figure no, that's too easy. So why not step it up a notch and re-read the seven novels seven times each? That's good, but again, I could do that easily. So I kept thinking about it, and I realized that the following was the best idea.

Re-read 7 the books X Re-read 7 times each X Re-watch the first 7 movies X Re-watch 7 times each

I'm calling this "The Great 7x7x7x7 Challenge". I will read all 7 Harry Potter books 7 times each, and do it in order. I will watch the corresponding movie every single time that I finish the book. Meaning, when I finish the first book, watch the 1st movie. Finish the 2nd, watch the 2nd movie, and so on. Finishing off with watching the 7th movie the DAY that the final movie comes out.

I plan on being at the theatre hours in advance, so I would probably watch the movie beforehand. Anyways, leave a comment letting me know what you think of this challenge, a suggestion on who/what I should dress up as, and feel free to join in on the challenge!!! I plan on starting next week!

By the way, I thought about dressing up as Dobby, Lord Voldemort, or a Death Eater, since I can actually buy masks for each. I would like to be creative in this, since most just go as a Hogwarts student. But who knows?

On-the-lookout-for-the-Crumple-Horned-Snorkack,
Jessa

Oooh, look, a Blibbering Humdinger!

Another day...in the library.

I was planning on going shopping today, since I knew that I didn't have class in the morning and I had to be in town anyways. However, I decided that I wasn't going to, since I would be alone and I wanted a second opinion. So that's why I'm sitting here and not at the mall. Bad choice actually, since when I got here I found out that I do not have class until 2pm. that's right 2PM!!! So I'm stuck here for awhile, with not a whole lot to do. A little homework, sure, but that's not going to take long.

I'm still on the lookout for a job, and that has been occupying my time for about 15 minutes so far.  It's not really going anywhere, but that's fine. I'll be patient. On another note, some grade 11s are talking so loud right now, about a graduation trip for next year...and other things, but I cannot be bothered to listen. Do people not realize that this is a library? I know that I must sound like an old person right now, complaining about the noise. but I'm really not. When kids are talking about walking into a bar and drinking themselves silly on a graduation trip, that's when I get grumpy.

Going-to-do-some-work,
Jessa

The Hungers Games- Peeta and Gale

They cast Peeta and Gale. Yeah. Not very happy with one of the castings, and the other one...well I'll just wait and see.

First, I don't think I'll mind Josh Hutcherson as Peeta. I mean, I really enjoyed Bridge to Teribithia, so this should be okay. Totally different stories, obviously, but still. I'm open on this one, and I'll wait until I see him onscreen. I don't like the character though...his names sounds like everyonbe's talking about pita bread. Ah well.

Now, Liam Hemsworth as Gale. First of all, I don't mind the character, in the books he's okay, but puts up with too much of Katniss' shit. Anyways, the reason I don't like him (the actor) is because I HATED his acting in The Last Song. I seriously hated it. I actually hated that entire movie...but that's not what I'm here for. I'm not actually sure who I pictured as Gale, but it was definitely NOT him. I would think that these two guys would be better switched around, but oh well...wait, that would mean Liam's in the movie more. Scratch that, this is fine. I suppose I can ignore all of this while watching the movie, I do still want to see it, but who knows? Did you know that Liam's dating Miley Cyrus? Makes me want to strangle myself. Can't stand either of them -.-

I am curious to see who they cast for other people though. I would be so tempted to audition, but...I can't :P I have a good idea for Cato though. I was thinking about Tom Felton for him, not sure why. I think it could work. However, I have a VERY specific idea for Haymitch, and if this actor is not cast I will be severely displeased.

I want none other that Johnny Depp to play Haymitch. Johnny can play a drunk soooo well, and I think that the role of Haymitch would be another "Captain Jack Sparrow" role for him. Meaning, it's absolutely perfect. The casting people should look into this...seriously.

Also, Ralph (I believe) Fiennes, the man who plays Lord Voldemort...would make a pretty kick-ass, awesome, terrifying, President Snow. :)

Let's-not-get-into-the-sign-off-now,
Jessa

I Wanted To Have It Chewing Up A Serpent

Second day, early morning...I am feeling extremely tired right now, been awake since 6:20am. Only because I had to catch my bus to get to school. I would never choose to get up this early if I could help it. Anyways, that's not the point.

I'm in the library at the moment, and while the little people, meaning grade 7/8s, are not here right now, I know they will be. Before I tell you about this, you have to know how they got to my school in the first place. Well, a couple years ago my school was in danger of being shut down because, and I quote, there was "not enough students". However, they closed a bunch of elementary schools, and then sent those grade 7 and 8s here. They are only in one hallway, and their lunch starts before the highschool lunch period, so one would think that you'd never see them. That is not the case. They are EVERYWHERE. For instance, they come to the library a lot. I spend most of my time here, since I have no morning classes most days (so that's at least 2 hours in here every single day), and they tend to come in with a teacher for "class". But the thing is, they are so LOUD. They yell and scream and talk at what seems to be the top of their lungs. They talk to neighbours right beside them at the tone you'd expect to see two people on opposite sides of a football field talking at. Well okay, maybe not quite that loud, but you get the point.

I find it hard to believe that myself and my friends were ever that loud when we were in grade 7/8. I figure that it's down to the fact that they have too much freedom here in high school and they are just running wild, because they can.  I know people don't miraculously quiet down when they hit grade 9, but still. I wish I had a hat that would eat them or something. Well...earplugs maybe. I just cannot concentrate when they are here, and the librarians and their teachers seem to not be doing anything to keep them quiet. -.-

At least I only have 3 more months here. :)

Insert-awesome-sign-off-here,
Jessa

PS: Does anyone else think that those white dandelion thingys (forgot the proper name) have grown since yesterday? I could've sworn that they didn't obscure any words!

PPS: of course, it might have to do with the fact that I am on my netbook, so things look a little different on here than on my desktop...

You're Just As Sane As I Am

I've tried to have a blog multiple times before this one, and they've always failed,. but I'm positive that this one is different. Why? Because I think I've finally figured out what my problem was. Hopefully everything works out right? Anyways, not that anyone is reading this first post, I felt like I should introduce myself to the Blogger world.

I'm Jess, a 17-year-old grade 12 student in Ontario, Canada. I'm not entirely sure what else to say about myself, other than informing everyone of the fact that I am a complete nutbar and that this blog will probably be filled with complete nonsense. The entire way through as well, I'm not joking. If you want to know what this blog will be about, I shall tell you. This blog...will be about everything AND the kitchen sink. My kitchen sink, by the way, is not that amazing. But I digress. I will write about whatever strikes my fancy, like things I watch on TV (meaning Survivor, Nikita, The Big Bang Theory, Degrassi, How I Met Your Mother...) and books I want to read or have actually read. I will also be commenting on movies, like casting decisions (mostly about the Hunger Games) and theater going experiences of watching said movies. Oh, I will be talking about my life as well. NOT that anyone cares!

I do have some pretty interesting events that are going down in the next three months though, so the blogs about my life shouldn't be THAT boring.

I do need to warn you though, as I am very much like Luna Lovegood (pretty much exactly like her, or so I've heard), this will be a very odd blog. But that'll make it fun. :)

I-don't-have-a-good-signoff-yet,-so-insert-one-here,
Jessa